Myriad milestones of pain.

Most times life becomes what we see, have, hear and endure. While it could be true to an extent, we also deny the fact that we are not happy with our achievements. Accepting to move on and moving on to accept becomes our way of daily bread and butter. The external eye that only sees superficial and material possession thinks all is well and even envies our lives. Whereas we, ourselves, ask for answers from the supreme divine on various fronts.

My quest in this path began several years back and I realise I hardly have moved an inch forward. With evolution, the paradigm of one's outlook towards life also changes drastically, but travels in the same direction. If you didnt understand what I mean, then this is what is life.

I am confounded to believe that it will not matter how many people tell us their own reason for living and to make a meaning for our own life. But, the inner self, and the one closer to the inner self can alone work some magic purely based on reasoning and thought.

Often, the myriad of conflicting beliefs and the craving for materials of sustenance defines the factors that eat the very soul of our life taking away anything meaningful. And with that, we get drowned in the ocean of consumerism, bargain and trade.

It is far easier to be told what to do than to even think about what might be possible. So we are happy to conform to this military mentality from birth, being taught that listening to what we are being told is the way of life. Such methods become a noose around our own necks rather than a protector for our survival. Creativity and satisfaction are pushed out of the door, only allowing room for a robotic life, filled with the same insidious stupidity day in and day out, to the point that we become closed off to life, reflecting not even a shadow of our own once exhibited passion.

We then are left to walk in life almost like we are half switched off, a simpleton that does no longer bother to think anymore. It shows up in our life when we continue to endure everything, just from the fact that life has become so repetitive, that we are no longer participating in it through our mind anymore.

And that's how life gets switched off completely.

Introspect and circumvent, but do not endure for long. Break the shackles and lose the chains to be a free bird again. Atleast, flying in the sky means, you may see a shadow of your own self !

Unleash the dark horse from within

Very few people have this amazing ability to turn around other people's lives and make a positive impact on various counts. Of this few, even fewer realise how much of an impact they have already had and could have.

I can also proudly say that I was once told by my boss that I had this knack of identifying the best possible person for a job. Horses for courses. Naturally, my expectations are very high. Not alone in business, but also in life. Very wrong, but sadly true.

Due to the rigors of high expectations and associated failures, eventually, we end up diluting our ambitions and passion out of frustration. And it has a chain effect and you feel knocked out until one day you rise up to see how many dominoes you have left behind flat on the ground. I have seen it myself and can today see more dominoes behind me than ahead of me. Imagine myself spiraling down in life like the water down a kitchen sink and wishing someone would plug the drain.

But, my life has seen a bit of turn around too. And naturally, owing to my high expectations, all my races ended up being run by this single horse. Or so I liked it to be. Because I believed it was the best talent on the track. I even mesmerised myself to only see this horse win all the time. Even if it meant making it run all alone along the course. May be the horse feels bored without a challenge in life to deal with. After all, isn't a horse made to win races against all odds? Little does the horse know or realise that I am rightly proud myself to have identified it as the best one to run any race. Whether the horse knows its impact on me or not, I know what it has done to my life and what its capable of doing. I want this horse to know that despite its talent and capabilities, I only want to see it winning all the time. Such is an impact of it on my life. And this is the only way I can be thankful to it by wishing away all of life's problems away from it.

Dark horses are rarely spotted (pun) and I did this one long long back and now wished it stopped worrying about the lack of challenges or anything else and instead just ran its race. After all, I would only want to see it winning always.

- The one who wouldnt like to ever see it lose against anyone - atleast any more.